Intro
Overview of today's science
Frustrations
Philosophical thoughts - why?
Then again, I ought to know better. As proved by the case of Job, what the Lord allows to be taken He is able to repay back double. I know that. But, I admit to being angry. I'm slowly surrendering this to Him. I just ... had such hopes ... which are now no more. I wanted to do well by Dr. Scarborough. I wanted to do my best and do LOTS of work. *sigh*
The fact that I'm so frustrated shows that perhaps this was what I needed, so I could learn to surrender my work to Him. He gives me everything good and He is sovereign over everything I accomplish. He is always in control, and I think He knows what He's doing, even if I cannot understand it right now.
Presentation next Tuesday
Making plans for the Salaita lab
But, fortunately, I'm also disbelieving, and can only see the work in front of my face right now, which is the presentation. So, I'm not really anticipating so much that it's driving me nuts. I'm actually peaceful for a change.
I plan on going back to my old desk in the Salaita lab. I like that desk. I'm looking forward to organizing my papers and creating my "real schedule" that I can follow in future, figuring in paper reading and such. Though I was really sad about it, there's an advantage to having only one class. It gives me more time to think and plan and do experiments, all of which are my favorite parts of grad school
Speculation on other students
Eating lunch with Salaita and Lynn lab people
I met this guy named Karim who was nice. He's an economist pH.D. student in his 2nd year from Persia. He said he'd been to and lived in Germany some. Lisa found out that I was joining the Salaita lab, because Yuan was asking my questions about it. And, she wasn't mad! I was really relieved. I had not been looking forward to telling her, but now I feel a lot better. I told her I'd visit her a lot.
I talked to Weiwei on the way back and asked him about his paper. He said it wasn't published in Nature because they said it wasn't novel enough. I guessed the journal when he asked me to guess - JACS. That's not a bad journal - he seemed to think it was - it could be I just don't know what good journals are - but I've read lots of cool articles in JACS. I got to listen to him explain about what the JACS reviewers said and what he fixed in his experiments, which was really interesting to me.
Afterward, peaceful work in the Scarborough lab
Last Tuesday's subgroup meeting
I finally got to try Dr. Scarborough's famous tea!
Wishing I could collaborate with Marika
Marika and I think the same way about food
Ever since they made me eat regular meals in the hospital, I've been much hungrier, and I'm eating a stupid lot right now - way more than I used to. I'm consistently eating two turkey sandwiches every day for lunch, with snacks, or the equivalent of some other food, when I used to eat only one sandwich or a half sandwich. However, so far, I'm also not really gaining weight, which is hilarious. I have no idea what that means. I'm hoping to keep up this habit of eating so I still get hungry at lunch and actually am able to eat food. I've also been walking on the treadmill and it's made me feel a lot better too.
I think that's everything - why did I write this?
I'm at Brian's house right now, vaguely listening to the RP. John's here. I'll probably leave at 9 pm, earlier than usual, so I can sleep. I was going to do work but ... maybe I'll just ... not. I was tired today since I didn't sleep much last night. If you read this, congratulations on wading through it all! I hope you all have a blessed evening!