Update, today: ALL of us trooped to Ann after biomolecular for either course forms, the Weaver take-home cume or both. The Weaver cume unexpectedly LOOKS AMAZING! It's on ONE paper! Called, "Enantiomer-specific detection of chiral molecules via microwave spectroscopy" by Patterson et al Nature 497, 475, 2013. I LOVE chiral molecules!! And Oxford does microwave chem so I love that too. Four questions. And we only have to get ONE right to get a half pass!! I got really excited and high-fived Victor and Gokul and told them yes, yes - we can do SOMEthing on this thing. Pray we ALL get half passes! :D This week doesn't cease to amaze.
Update (~4:00 pm): Submitted proposal to Conticello. Finally. Was fighting with trying to add the references, which weren't added to this computer's end note. Thought I'd have to find and add each individually everywhere. Then, I fixed the first one in the document, and somehow, ALL 29 appeared numbered and ordered magically like they are supposed to be, at the end. O.o *collapses with thanks to the Lord* No idea how that happened. But I'm sooooo glad it did.
Update (5:11 pm): Saw Dr. Lynn at the 4th Friday. He wants to meet tomorrow. I haven't prepared enough to talk to him yet. *panic* Guess that's what I'll be doing later. AnnaBell wants to study Weinert HW set now. PLS pray I figure out what I'm supposed to say to Dr. L. I got stuck doing other things Th and today.
Update (9:13 pm): Thanks for any prayers for today! Daniel (Heaven Lab) prayed for me and I was very grateful. I'm always grateful for his prayers. Mom said she looked up that school I wanted to get interns from and read all about it and that it was a charter school. She thought I was already currently teaching three students. I said, (???) No, not at all. So there was a misunderstanding. She's not annoyed about it. She thinks it's interesting. She also found a charter school that teaches only in Chinese, which she found to be fascinating. The Lord has answered a LOT of prayers this week. I'm never as panicked or stressed as I sound, if I come off that way. I don't feel that stressed these days. I just wake up every day literally having NO IDEA how I'm going to get my work done and wondering about it. Not particularly stressed - but sometimes, overwhelmed - and occassionally, having attacks of stress. I have to depend on the Lord ALL the time, just to survive. That's a good thing. Good training.
The Lord constantly takes such good care of me and I see it all the time. I just never know how it's going to work out, with the next thing. And I worry that maybe I won't try my best hard enough and put myself in a bad position. I don't want to tempt the Lord by not working and expecting Him to do my work for me. He doesn't do that. I know most people would say that's a stupid fear, because I do work hard, and maybe that's true, but there it is. One can also work hard without being efficient too. And doing that is as if one didn't work hard, to me. I just feel terribly annoyed at myself all the time, that I KNOW I could fit so much more into my day if only I were more efficient. Not being efficient enough is a constant source of shame to me. I want to do so much better. I will keep trying. As I like to say: I try to try to do my very best. But, it doesn't always come out like that. And that's just very frustrating. Must go and read Dr. Lynn's grant now.
Prayer: Please pray the Lord expands my time and somehow, we manage to finish the Weinert homework, which is completely obscure this time. She made it very hard to find the paper she based it on (though she said if we found it, it was totally ok to use it). So far, the homework makes no sense, even after two hours. Rather discouraging. I thought it was more time than that. Maybe there's hope. Also, that the grading for orgo doesn't take all day on Sunday so that I can still get the cume done. And that I know what I'll say to Dr. Lynn tomorrow, because I have no idea. And can read his grant. And know what it means. THANK YOU. <3