I realized something yesterday...
As soon as this occurred to me, I felt electrically charged with certainty that it was so, and I felt as if the Lord smiled at me and said the equivalent of, "Finally, you noticed."
Whoever you are, anonymous warrior person(s) fighting for me, whom the Lord raised up recently - don't stop!! You're amazing! I just realized - I'm not sure when it started happening - but there's been something different, definitely last week, and maybe the week before that - I'm not sure - in which the balance around me is shifting in a way that only happens when powerful prayers are prayed. It's like some new force is coming into play that wasn't there before. The Lord is using you to strengthen and encourage me and give me extra protection. Everything around me is shifting in the positive. I've felt it subconsciously but didn't connect the dots until now.
I feel like - have felt like especially last week - that there's extra strength, an extra shield around me, extra energy being hurled against my battles - that is new; something new, has entered the equation on my side. At least, it's new to me. I didn't notice until now. And it's making a tremendous difference! Someone is fighting for me! Someone has my back. Thinking about that - I was suddenly hugely encouraged and inspired with tremendous confidence. Recognizing what the Lord has done lately, I completely lost all fear of this week and felt a tremendous energy boost. Don't ask me how I know. I just KNOW. You can say I'm weird. That's ok.
THANK YOU!! You mysterious person(s). I'm SO excited and happy. You don't know what this means to me! Not even very many believers fight consistently for each other in prayer - it's a tremendous gift - prayer is powerful - and not everyone knows it. But the person warrior fighting I think knows - because the prayers being prayed around me are powerful, and moving things.
If there's more people praying than I thought, I'll have to ask the Lord if there's anything particular He wants done or prayed for, since there's this new power on the battlefield. I'll ask Him and see what He says, and let you know, so you can pray for it. All I know is, He wanted me to write this post this morning, to tell whoever it is what a difference it's making.
I still fervently pray for John, for Khalid, for other peoples the Lord gives me every day, fighting as hard as I can for them - there's certain people the Lord has asked me to fight for and I love doing so - and I'm feeling so much stronger now to fight!
Short Comments on Some Funny Things
So, I found out, I WASN'T taking the antibiotics ... the doctor gave me TWO bottles of pills - and I didn't realize it until now. I looked at them last night and was like ... wait ... these are DIFFERENT?! *headdesk* I don't know what it is I have been taking - which actually kind of is horrifying - maybe it's an antihistamine? That makes no sense. I have to figure it out later. But, well, no point to taking the antibiotics now. I'm almost better. So how did that happen if I wasn't taking them and it took Dr. Weinert two weeks to get well? Prayer? I wouldn't be surprised, at this point. Especially with the extra power being thrown around me.
We had such a good bioorganic class today - turned in the HW problem set and discussed it - got our proposals back with comments. Dr. Weinert seems to like my proposal! She said positive things! She said my intro had improved GREATLY and I discussed it with her afterward. She seemed very supportive. I've noticed Dr. Weinert is a lot more compassionate than she first comes across. She's been very kind to me. We had a great conversation about everything. And I got to tell her excitedly about the LDL and how it seemed the body might already be using the LDL protein corona for targeting and she looked happy and excited as well and said yes, that was a fascinating notion.
The HW problem set went very well. Good things are happening. I can feel it. I'm SO encouraged. I'm not worried any more.
For now, that is all! I must go do LOTS OF WORK! But it's ok. I like my work. And the Lord will help me. He'll give me good ideas and show me how to do things.
Thank you praying peoples - especially any of you new praying warrior peoples that the Lord recently enlisted - you're making a tremendous difference. I'll keep giving you reports and you wait and see what God will do! God loves answering prayers. I think He might just be about to up the ante.
You people rock!!
~ Jessica :D